late night ramblings

Oops I did it again. I changed my design. Every time I stray from the pink + gold + black combo I end up missing it, so here we are. As I'm writing this post I'm planning on redoing my love story and about page next, so check those out and yell at me if they look the same because that means I got lazy. I really haven't had the motivation to blog lately, so I thought maybe another face lift is what I needed. But we'll see. I don't know what happened, but I've just been so out of it lately when it comes to the blog. It really bothers me because I love this space and I'm sad that my motivation seems to be somewhere else.

With finals coming and everything, I've been stressed so for now I'm blaming it on that. My life has just been so uneventful I feel like I have nothing to talk about. I'm really hoping that when I get to Montana I'll be so excited to share all of the fun things we're doing and I'll be super motivated. Fingers crossed guys. Speaking of Montana, I officially leave in less than three weeks! Three weeks from yesterday to be exact. It couldn't come faster- I'm going crazy without him! Life is so much better when I'm with him and I'm beyond happy that I get to spend all summer with the man I love! This is the time in the countdown where I start making packing lists which I never actually look at while I'm packing. I start planning the outfit I'm going to wear on the plane which usually changes the morning of. I plan my Starbucks run at the airport. I picture our sweet hello over and over again. It makes my heart so happy. But this is also the point where time seems to slow down. The past two months have sped by, but  I can already feel these last few weeks slowing down and it drives me crazy. All I want is to be there. It's so hard to live in the present right now. All thats happening at the moment is studying, homework, work, and counting down until summer. I just have to get through these three weeks (20 days yay).

Oh, also. I gave up giving up gluten. Aka I'm eating it again. I've been so bad about both dairy and gluten, and dairy really kills me. So I'm focusing on that and in the meantime I'm going to go back to a little gluten. I've been having trouble finding things to eat for lunch that you don't need bread for. So I'm back to sandwiches sometimes and toast with my breakfast. Yolo. And I bought smores pop tarts. If you don't like smores pop tarts we can't be friends, sorry.

So there we have it another post about my two favorite things- my boyfriend and food. What have you been up to lately?
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a blating profile // meet Anne

Well ladies and gents, it's your lucky day and you probably didn't even know it. Why is it your lucky day you might ask? Well, I have someone very special to introduce you to! If you're looking for a new friend in the blogosphere, look no further because I have all of the info you'll need right here for one of the coolest ladies in all of Blogland. Today, I am introducing you to Anne from Love the Here and Now! She has an amazing blog where she shares the stories of her day to day life.

She's awesome, right? Well, if you want to stop by and meet Anne (which I can promise will be worth it) here's where you can stalk her:

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this could be that moment

In high school, I was a really good student. I graduated with a 4.5 GPA as valedictorian with honors and blah blah blah. So naturally I had high hopes for college. I wanted to go somewhere great. I knew I wasn't Ivy League material or anything, but I wanted to go somewhere prestigious. I had my sights set on Washington University in St. Louis. It has like the #4 medical school in the country, and the campus is B-E-A-UTIFUL. I was obsessed and I decided that it was the only place I was going to apply because I knew that I wouldn't be happy anywhere else. But guess what? I got put on the wait list. I cried. A lot. And I was so mad. But I had that little ounce of hope that they would take people from the wait list. But guess what? They didn't. So I got stuck going to U of A, which (and this is embarrassing to admit) I felt I was "too good for." God I was annoying. But honestly, getting rejected from that school where everyone is an A student and studies 10 hours a day was one of the best things that ever happened to me. I'm barely getting a good GPA at UofA and I'm so over school, so I know if I was there I would be miserable. If I was in St. Louis, I probably wouldn't be with DJ. I wouldn't have been home when he came home that first time, and we probably wouldn't have started a relationship. I wouldn't have some of my best friends that I met here at UofA. I wouldn't have been in Arizona to meet C Town and K Camp who are the shiznit.

It amazes me that a day that I thought was the worst day ever ended up being life changing in the best way possible. At the time, I would've never believed that getting rejected from the school I'd dreamed of going to would be a good thing, but looking back it honestly changed my life. It's crazy how something can be so life changing without you even knowing it, right?

Like when I added DJ on Facebook a year and a half ago. I clicked a button on the computer and it changed my life. What if I hadn't added him? Or he hadn't messaged me? I remember being hesitant to add him because it had been so long since we'd seen each other, and I didn't know if he still remembered me. But I did it (yolo). I didn't expect anything to come out of it- it was just a friend request to a cute guy on Facebook. But here we are, over a year later, and we've spoken every day since. We dream of our wedding and talk about our future kids and we're madly in love. Who would've thought?

Its crazy to think that something happening right now can be life changing and we don't even know it. Writing this post could change me life. Maybe the spaghetti I'm eating right now will change my life. Maybe the trip I'm about to take to Sonic to get ice cream will be life changing. Who knows! Everything happens for a reason. Something that might seem terrible could end up being the best thing thats ever happened. I'm trying to keep that in mind these next couple of weeks as I'm counting down the days to see DJ. I think about how badly waiting sucks, but in all honestly, being apart from each other was probably the best thing for our relationship. It has made us so strong and has proved to us that we never want to live without each other. It's honestly been a blessing.

So, the bad things don't always end up being so bad, the small things might not really be so small, and this could be the moment that changes everything.

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fake friends suck

My best friend lives in Ohio. Which is far. I hadn't seen her in months and she finally got to come visit me on Thursday! I was so happy to see her. We can go months without seeing each other, but when we're together it's like nothing has changed, and I love it.

I've been thinking a lot about the friendships I have. I'm going to be moving away this year, and I'm not going to be seeing a lot of my friends every day like I do now. It makes me wonder who I'm actually going to stay friends with, and who I'll lose touch with. It sounds bad, but I'm not good at keeping in touch with people when I'm not around them. I know that I have some really good friends that will always be there for me, but when I think about it, there are some people I just don't care to have in my life.

I think about what makes someone a "friend." There are some people I consider friends, but I probably shouldn't. I have some friends that abuse our friendship. I have friends that act like they're my friend, but when it comes down to it, they aren't there for me. Some of those people are people that I thought I was really close with, but they've proved me wrong. I'm really good at giving second chances. And third chances. And fourth. But at what point do I just stop trying? And how do you tell someone you're done?

I complain to DJ about it a lot, and he always tells me that they aren't worth my time. That I shouldn't let it bother me. That at this point, I should expect it from these people. He's right. I don't need people in my life that are only going to cause me stress. I'm tired of having fake friends. I'm tired of people being my friend only when they need something. I'm tired of getting my hopes up thinking, "Okay, this time she'll change," and being disappointed. If someone can't take that time to text me back ever, or come see me when we live five minutes away, why should I be there when they need me?

What is a real friend? To me, a real friend is there for you as much as you're there for them. A real friend makes you laugh, makes your day better- not stresses you out or makes you sad. Sure, people aren't perfect. I'm sure I'm not always a great friend. But a real friend tries.

I'm so thankful for the friends I do have. The friends that are there for me and will be there for me even when I'm not living here for a while. I'm thankful for my amazing boyfriend who's also my best friend. I'm thankful for new friends like C Town and K Camp (who really need to get their asses to Tucson!).

what do you think makes a real friend?
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the boy behind my blog!

Happy Thursday! I can't believe this week is almost over already....crazy! It's already half way through April which blows my mind. Where is the time going? Anyway, its that time of the month again...my favorite time of the month...where DJ gets to take over the blog! I'm linking up with Stephanie and Mallory for The Boys Behind the Blog link up!
Mal Smiles

1. Your girlfriends blog- a blessing or a curse?
Well its not a curse, so I'll say its a blessing.

2. Do you read Brianna's blog?
I don't read every post, but I read most of them :)
hehe I didn't think he read any of them!

3. What's one thing you do better than anyone you know?
Drive! I'm just really particular about how I like to drive so when people don't do it very well I get frustrated.
Which is why he always drives when we're together... :)

4. What's your favorite TV sitcom from the 90's?
The Fresh Prince! No doubt.

5. If you could open a business/shop what would it be + what goods/services would you sell?
I would want to do something with my hands. Maybe do construction or something with cars!

Well there you have it! Thanks Handsome! Did your man link up this month?
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social media pet peeves

I'm addicted to social media. But aren't we all? Bloggers without social media is like macaroni without cheese. Which is just pasta. Which I guess is still good so that was a bad example. How about a blogger without social media is like a fish without water? That's dramatic. But I think you get the point. So where were we? I'm always on social media. I have a routine. I check Facebook which usually has nothing new because I just checked it like five minutes ago. Then I check Twitter which usually has some funny tweets from Whale Facts or Antijoke apple because they're my favorite. By the way I'm so happy because DJ is following Pizza on Twitter and I think thats so funny. Anyway, then I check the Insta which usually leads to me stalking myself and wishing I was back in Germany. Woof. That was a lot. But where am I going with this? I forgot and had to take a break because I literally couldn't remember what this post was supposed to be about. Tuesdays are not my days. Anyway, being on social media all the time, there are those people that really bug you. You know who I'm talking about.

The constant selfie instagrammer.
A few selfies are fine. We all have those days where our hair is on point or we just want everyone to know how good we look, right? But three selfies a day? NO. We know what you look like. We've seen your duck face. We know that the caption "I look so ugly today" is a cry for attention. Oh, your boobs just happen to look HUGE in that picture and you didn't realize it? Yeah, okay. Multiple Instagrams a day are annoying, but if its multiple selfies- get out.

The giveaway tweeter.
Okay who doesn't love free stuff? I sure do. I even entered my first Instagram giveaway yesterday which I NEVER do because I don't like posting those kinds of things on the Insta...but free Starbucks? Count me in. Tweets are always worth more points in giveaways, I get it. But if you tweet ten giveaway links in a row, buh-bye *hairflip emoji* I don't want your spam crap on my news feed. Or whatever its called on Twitter. Tweed (twitter+feed) see? I'm funny.

The pity poster.
These are the ones that are clearly posts for attention. You know, the dramatic "everyone hates me, my life sucks" posts. Then when someone asks whats wrong they suddenly don't want to talk about it because they're too busy being a drama queen. "Everything is falling apart. I can't do anything right." Translation: Feel sorry for me and tell me how amazing I am. Or that song lyric thats super dramatic and clearly they posted it for a reason, but when no one comments on it and asks whats wrong they post another "life sucks" status because that'll surely make someone comment. They're the ones who post the "I'm ugly" pictures just so people will tell them they're pretty...attention seeking whores.

The over-sharer.
I understand that you're excited that you just had a baby. I'm happy for you. But I don't want to know how much you're bleeding still or how well your child is latching or how much your vag hurts (I have too many of these on Facebook...this is not a drill.) I'm sorry you have a kidney infection, but please don't post pictures of your urine on Facebook. (Also a true story.) I'm all for a tweet about pooping and other funny things, but some people share way too much and its gross and I can't handle it.

The boyfriend basher.
I can never understand this one. Not every relationship is perfect, obviously. But who would bash their husband/boyfriend on Facebook? If you have issues, deal with it. When you post about how guys suck we obviously know you're talking about the guy you're with. Like how embarrassing would it be to go on Facebook and see that your boyfriend/girlfriend posted a status about how you better start treating him(her) right?! Not okay. It's embarrassing and rude and you're obviously immature if you think a tweet is going to solve your relationship problems. Oh, and we can see what you "Like" on Facebook so every time you like a picture with a cheesy quote about how you deserve better, we see it.

The hashtag whore.
#too #many #hashtags #are #annoying #and #we #dont #care #if #youre #wearing #nomakeup #and #theres #nofilter

What're your social media pet peeves?

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things I can't live without + a cute picture of DJ holding an umbrella

This post is going to make me sound so materialistic and probably really ridiculous, but yolo its Tuesday. Which literally doesn't mean anything but I do what I want. But really there are just some things you can't live without, right?

I can't live without my phone. Sorry not sorry, I'm addicted. If I didn't have my phone I wouldn't be able to text DJ and then I would be sad. If I didn't have my phone I wouldn't be able to check Twitter and find out that US Airways is tweeting nudies. If I didn't have my phone I'll miss all of the important phone calls I get (you know, because I get so many). If I didn't have my phone I wouldn't be able to text in group chat with Kailey and Carissa and that would make me sad because they're the shit.

Starbucks. Like honestly I tried to give it up because I spend too much money on it. But I think I only lasted like...a week. I don't know what it is about Starbucks, but I really love their coffee more than anyone else's. It tastes better. Starbucks is the way to my heart so if you want me to love you just get me an iced soy chai. PS this picture was in Germany at the end of the trip when we finally got to go somewhere that had a Starbs. I was dying without it.

I can't live without countdowns. I love countdowns. They make the time go by so much faster and when I'm away from DJ we love having countdowns until our next reunion. Its so fun seeing it turn to "29" (like it did today) when it feels like just yesterday it was at 60.

I can't live without music. I'm always listening to it. I can't drive in the car without it, I listen to it in the shower, and while I'm walking to class. After a long day, loud music is the best stress relief. I love finding new songs I love, and I usually listen to the same song over and over again until I'm sick of it though.

I can't live without my boyfriend. Sorry but we all knew that was coming, right? Like I literally don't think I could live without him. Even when he's at work and I can't talk to him all day, I'm sad. When we're apart, life is so not as fun. He makes me happy when I'm down, he calms me when I'm stressed, and when I'm freaking out or going crazy hearing him tell me everything will be okay makes me feel so much better. He's my rock and I cannot wait to be with him forever! He makes everything so much more exciting. He's perfect for me and I'm so beyond happy I never have to live without him!

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